Today feels the same as every other day. I wish that I didn't keep feeling this way. Everyday I think about what I would be doing if I still had my family. I wonder how big the girls would be, what they would be able to do by now.
I wonder if I will ever have a family again. I wonder if I will be able to get myself both mentally and physically healthy enough to be able to start over.
But I am back in school and am getting out of bed everyday for those girls. I don't want them to see me give up, that isn't what they would have wanted for me. So I continue to get up everyday. I continue to do all my homework to the fullest and try with everything in me. Although they aren't here, everything I do I do it for them. I do it for the family I had and hope that someday I may have a family again.
